Writer's Block?
Mon., November 17, 10:05 AM
Actually, I don’t think so, even though I haven’t been able to post for almost two weeks. In case of temporary writer’s block, I have a bunch of started pieces that I could pick up and turn into passable posts, if I wanted to. The problem is that I don’t want to.
I don’t want to write (not even rants), or read, or crochet, or do housework. I watch a lot of television, but mostly I have been playing Free Cell, and pretty poorly at that. Finally I remembered that I never can play it well if I am at all depressed. I went back and read a post from two years ago, that I called Hey, Ida! It is the same and, at the same time, it is different.
This is the same:
Ida wanna get up if it’s still dark outside.
I had a temporary reprieve when the clocks fell back, but once again the day is not very welcoming at six o’clock. And the thought of going through another season of cold weather is just more than I want to contemplate.
The other part that’s the same is that I have to analyze. As I once responded to a doctor who asked if I was depressed, is it really depression if there are depressing things going on around you. Now, let’s see:
- Winter, as noted.
- Husband’s ongoing illness. He is very sick, but he’s not in danger of dying, so that this could go on for a very long time. In fact, I figure he will outlive me.
- The state of the economy and the way it affects individuals. We probably have chosen the best possible person to do the job for us, but it is an enormous task. The individuals will probably be paying for it for a generation or two.
Those are the big ones; there are a lot of little ones too. The difficulty for me, as a problem solver, is that there are too many things that I can’t fix. If it were just one or two, I would, at the very least, figure out a walk-around.
Intellectually, I know that it will pass. Bad things always do, one way or another. (At the very worst, we learn to live with them.) Right now, it’s emotional, not intellectual. I am thinking that pushing myself to write something might be a beginning.
